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Monday, February 3, 2025

Things Saving my Winter

This has been a weird start to winter with December just being crazy with Matt finishing school and then January brought a new homeschool challenge to my days (I still shock myself occasionally when I remember that we are doing that..it stills feels little crazy).  Some days are certainly easier than others and today was...not one of those easy days.  But it was also 56° and didn't feel like winter so maybe that's just how it balances out.  Linking up with Modern Mrs. Darcy for a few things saving my winter (although I am ADAMANT that winter is over on February 28th and spring starts March 1st.  Nobody can change my mind on this.)

1) Matt not being in school
It was a hard 16 months, especially the final few weeks in December which was crazy for a number of other reasons too and then Christmas as well.  But him not being in school anymore and actually being a present member of our family has been WONDERFUL.  The boys appreciate seeing him more.  I appreciate him helping with the boys and anything else around the house more.  And we no longer have to schedule our lives around his classes.  It is amazing.

2) Cleaning the basement/getting rid of things
The first big post-school project that Matt has tackled has been working on the basement, a continual problem area in our house.  We got some shelves from my aunt's house and that lead to massive purging and cleaning out, which has been motivating for both of us.  Just making decisions on things, getting things out of the house, having less.  This has mostly been aimed at the basement but we've also gotten more ruthless in other parts of the house too, as inspiration strikes.  It's very freeing.  

 

 3) My tea schedule
I am already looking forward to tomorrow morning's tea.  It's English Breakfast shortly after breakfast and Lemon Lift at lunch.  Sometimes one or both of those hit the microwave at least once (it's a very fine line between burning my mouth and it being too cold!) but I look forward to both my cups of tea, every day.

4) Harry Potter on audio
I started reading Harry Potter to Luke about 2 years ago, and with a few other books in there, we just finished Order of the Phoenix.  It's been slow going.  Now that he's home with me and we're in the car more, just the two of us, I borrowed from the library the audiobook of first, Order of the Phoenix and now Half-Blood Prince for us to listen to to help us keep the momentum going.  It's maybe only one or two chapters a week this way, just driving to/from homeschool swim and maybe the orthodontist, but it really has helped the momentum going the most.  It would have been nearly impossible to do before (there just isn't much time it's just us in the car) but I'm glad we finally realized we should do it now. 

5) Get Healthy U TV workouts
This has been my non-running workout of choice for the past year and I especially love the mornings I am not so rushed for time (i.e. over school breaks, two hour delay, or elearning day) so I can do a slightly longer one.  I still love running when it's nice outside but these have been wonderful for working on some muscle groups that running tones less (upper body and core, namely) and giving me some full body workouts especially when I'm not running.  I don't always get out of bed in time to do as much as I'd like but I do appreciate the days I do.  

6) Reading
I've never not had this on my list and it continues to be true this year.  Reading settles my brain like nearly nothing else and I get so anxious on days too busy to fit it in.  My brain needs that break away from thinking about everything else.  

7) No Sports
In addition to Matt being done with school, we are also on a nice long break from sports, given Luke's homeschooling.  It was a BIG change from him playing basketball and Matt in school to all of a sudden being done with both within a week of each other.  We have our nights at home again now!  Most nights I can put on my lazy pants as soon as I get Sam from school!  It doesn't mean our nights always go smoothly but it does let us get in more of a more consistent routine than we had been able to for quite awhile between both those scheduling crunches. 

What's been saving YOUR life?

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Thursday, September 19, 2024

What I'll Remember from Summer 2024

We are well past the end of summer, by nearly any schedule except for the calendar which insists we still have a few more days (it certainly feels like it, temperature wise) but my kids have been in school more than a month and we've started harvesting pumpkins from our garden!  Fall is in the air and eventually it will feel like it.

I started planning for this summer maybe the earliest I ever have, booking our Outer Banks trip a whole 51 weeks in advance.  We knew it would be a little bit different of a summer (see #1) but still managed to fit in quite a bit of fun. 

1) Matt in school
Matt was in school pretty much the entire time the boys were out of school.  He had 2 week semester breaks in late April/early May (before the boys were out) and another in late August (after the boys had started back up).  But he did get one week off in the middle of summer where we were able to go on vacation.  So that was wonderful!  And for the first time since he started school (last September) he didn't have class Mon-Thurs evenings which was so helpful.  He still had a lot to do but him not being tied to his office quite as much was a break we all needed.  We also spent the most time apart we ever have in our marriage when he had to go to South Bend for 5 nights.  The second day of that trip was only the second day in 19 years we hadn't seen each other.  And then we added two more days to that count later in the week.  But boys & I got to visit him twice (once for his graduation ceremony, 5 months early) and then we got a week off together.  When thinking about next summer my brain automatically goes to working around Matt's school schedule because that has been so much of life for the past year...but he'll be done by then!  We just will be working around a new job. 

2) OBX
I went to the Outer Banks with my family the summer before my senior year of high school.  It was one of my favorite family vacations.  That was 2000 and Matt and I went back together in 2011.  We unintentionally stayed in nearly the same area, only about ½ mile down the road, actually coming across our KOA on one of our beach walks.  OBX had long been on the list to take the boys back to and we finally did this summer, when we knew we needed a lower key trip with Matt's school.  We stayed at the exact same KOA as I did with my family 24 years earlier and I was SO delighted by this, especially when my Mom found and sent me a picture of the KOA map from 2000.  We found approximately where my family's site was (there was a pretty major hurricane that came through just 2 months after Matt & I went in 2011 so a lot had changed).  We visited some of the same places as our previous trips and even spent a day with our nephew, his wife, and their kids who, truly completely coincidentally, were on the Outer Banks (but ~45 min away) the same week as us.  I loved being back there and it was a shorter drive than Cocoa Beach last year!

3) Afternoon sun tea
I became pretty dedicated to my sun tea this summer, almost always remembering to make a new batch when drinking my final cup of the last batch.  Maybe I should sleep more so I am not so reliant on my caffeine??  That would be smart.  Anyways, I really looked forward to my afternoon tea.  Sometimes I even managed to drink it while reading on the porch.

4) Teaching Matt & boys Peanuts
This barely counts as summer but I think I'll remember it as a summer memory.  My family played the card game "peanuts" a lot when I was around Luke's age, sometimes having pretty big groups going.  I always used these troll doll cards I had gotten for Christmas (I still have them!) and everyone else thought they were pretty ugly.  As part of my "teach the boys a new game every month" plan (which we are behind on) we played this with them after I had the boys practice with some solitaire to get used to the concept (kinda).  It has been such a delight for me to be playing with my family.

5) Smirnoff Lemonades
These were my drink of choice most of the summer.  I did hard cider for a long time but wasn't really liking it as much anymore and a browse through the liquor store lead me to these.  It's hard to find a beverage pack with no cherry or watermelon flavors (I will not touch either).  These are very drinkable and lemonade is so perfect for summer.

6) Boys with neighbors all summer
On the first day of summer break I sat down with the boys and we talked about expectations for the summer, both from me and them, and how we could handle screen time.  Well that screen time planned lasted about 3 days then our schedules became too unpredictable.  However, the boys spent a significant time this summer playing with the neighbors, two brothers in the same grades as our boys, to the point where I wouldn't see them for hours (if they were playing at their house, we tried to make them alternate between our two backyards).  It gave me some nice quiet time in the afternoon AND motivated the boys to get chores and things done so they could play.

7) Italian Ices (affiliate link)
We had long been consuming many of the frozen tube popsicles over the summers, I think it started back in our lake days.  I'd buy 4-5 boxes of them at the start of summer and we could go through all 400-500 in a summer.  Matt ordered a box of these Italian Ice pops at the beginning of the summer and I was leery at first.  I had already stocked up for the summer.  But then we started eating them and they ARE better than the Aldi/Target variety.  One kid hated them but that meant more for us.  This kind of popsicle was also a huge help when our older son got braces at the end of the summer. 

8) Jellystone & other camping
I didn't know if we'd be able to fit in our normal summer fun this year but Matt did the best he could with his schedule and we still made 2 Jellystone trips (one over his semester break when the boys had a couple extra week days off!) and 4 KOA trips like we had the previous 2 summers.  He did class zooms at Jellystone once and homework at a KOA but he did what he could so we could still fit in our fun.  I think, on our 6th trip this summer, we finally mastered our Jellystone preferences. 

9) Kroger Sea Salt Caramel Truffle
I really fell off the "make all my own ice cream" bandwagon this summer.  I was so dedicated to it for so long and there were some I wanted to make...but then it didn't happen and I have no good reason as to why.  However, I was paid in Kroger gift cards for helping someone and that lead me to the Kroger ice cream aisle which lead me to this masterpiece of ice cream.  It really is perfect and I had it too many nights before I decided nightly ice cream isn't the healthiest choice (I still have it a couple times a week, plus peach sorbet on the days I run).  This stuff is GOOD.  And now Kroger sends me coupons for it so I kinda have to keep buying it, right? (I know I don't...but I am going to.)

This was a weird summer with school but it was still a lot more like our "normal" summers than I expected.  And he should never be in school over summer again!!!

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Thursday, May 30, 2024

My First SAHP(erson) Year

Last year I was dreading a few things happening at the end of the summer.  The first was turning 40.  The second was sending my baby, who we didn't intend to be our baby, to kindergarten.  I thought about those two things A LOT throughout last spring and summer, dreading most having to actually leave my youngest at kindergarten to walk home alone.  

The second quarter of last year, July through September, had some more wallops in there with the expected death of my mother-in-law in July and then my husband going back to school right after Labor Day.  The school one we found out was coming in late spring precisely when I started dreading that as well.  It has entailed my husband still working ~30 hours a week for pay, taking 15-18 credits a semester, and, in January, he started his 740 required clinical hours (being trained in what will eventually be his new job for no pay).  His program has consumed the majority of his waking, non-working hours. 

Luke picked up two more sports this school year, started serving at Masses, and playing the trumpet.  Sam was in kindergarten all day after spending the vast majority of the first nearly 5½ years of his life with me.  

I do not do well with change and last fall was A LOT of change.  A LOT.  And I was dealing with most of this alone since I was now home by myself most of the school day and my husband was very busy in the evenings with his schoolwork and online classes.  The fact that I ran 225 miles in that quarter probably literally saved my sanity.  Those three months of the year were really, really hard. The first 6 days my youngest was in school I would cry every time I came back to an empty house.  I've already been crying just writing this! (Don't worry, not the first time today!)

Gradually I settled into something of a routine with all these extra, quiet hours to myself.  I blocked off Tuesdays and Thursdays primarily as my work days (although, as I write this on a Wednesday, I need to get some work done).  Wednesdays are Mass and errands.  House cleaning mostly happens on Mondays and Fridays but MWF is when I have a chance to blog or work on photobooks.  I spent SO MUCH time last fall catching up vacation photobooks and our and the boys' annual books.  When Sam started kindergarten the boys' books were about 5 months behind and as of right now, I am only about a month behind (frantically trying to get a bunch of summer blog posts done has cut into my photobook time). 

I volunteer more at school.  I was co-room parent for kindergarten.  Went on field trips, helped in the lunch room more.  Worked on our school auction/dinner with losing less of my mind than the year before (although I was sick and missed the actual event this year).  I picked up a second part-time job.  It took me a long time to find my way with how to use all of these hours.  I could have always easily filled them (I will ALWAYS take more reading time) but trying to figure out how to fill them in ways that made our evenings and weekends easier.

The two things I never got enough of during my decade staying at home with kids were sleep and actual quiet time.  Always wanting more of the second lead to the loss of a lot of the first.  But I discovered how much easier to think and focus when my own distractions are the only things pulling my thoughts away.  It is a marked difference from my years with a kid at home when, once they were past the regular napping stage, I didn't get much time to actually think until they were in bed, at which point I was usually too tired to be productive in much.  I still am not sleeping enough, a problem I really shouldn't have anymore besides 40s insomnia, but getting that quiet time and letting my brain settle into one task for a good period of time has been WONDERFUL.  I still distract myself but it is still more dedicated focus than I've mostly had in years.  

The other pluses of being home alone all the time is that I am no longer pushing a stroller to run even though I have reminisced multiple times about the hours I spent chatting with Sam while I pushed him.  And I do miss having a place (the stroller) to put water and/or a jacket depending on if we were running home from drop-off (when I might want a jacket for the walk there) or to drop-off (when I'd want water when we got there).  But I have adjusted my running schedule around those and I do mostly appreciate the ease of not running with a stroller.

I also get to listen to my podcasts when running errands, I habit I gave up once the boys weren't little babies anymore.  And I can walk to pick-up much faster on my own than I could when I had a little tagalong.  There are small hidden benefits but even though I appreciate some of those things, it still makes me a little sad that I am alone so much.  (Which is why I often have my little niece and/or nephew grocery shop with me when I end up at Aldi at the same time as my sister, which is semi frequently during the school year.)

Right now, as I write this, my boys are 3 hours from getting out of school for the summer.  It is baffling where the year went or HOW THE HECK we will have 6th and 1st graders when they start back up, at which point I will be lamenting being alone again.  But now, looking at the next ~11 weeks, I am a little bit sad at losing time to think, have that focus.  (Which is why I've been trying to get so far ahead on blog posts, so I have less computer things I am trying to get done.)  I am still unsure how I will be getting my work hours in.  But I want to be able to embrace having them around all day, as much as I'd also really like an hour of nobody talking to me in the middle of each day.  

I'm glad I was able to have more quiet time during the day because our evenings have been increasingly less quiet, more busy, and I am on Mom duty even more with my husband in school.  That is the beauty in all this timing, as much as I hated all the change at once.  I can fill my quiet bucket during the day so I can be more fully on from 3pm-9pm when I am needed to parent.  

This year has gone faster than I expected, was both harder and easier than I expected.  It took me weeks to adjust and I still get really sad sometimes when I think about how hard that transition was in the fall.  I don't feel like the same person I was 9 months ago but that's also the nature of life.  It's always changing, forcing us to grow even when we might not want to.  And it's helped me appreciate the time I do have the boys at home, even as their near ages that they want me around less and less (ahhhh...parenting....so much fun).  I was going to be alone all day at some point, as Taylor Swift just sang..."old habits die screaming" which is very applicable to how I feel right now.  Life moves on.  Onto summer!!

Related posts:
Being a Kindergarten Empty Nester (August 2023)
Losing SAHM Status (Feb 2024)

picture by Sam

Friday, March 22, 2024

Hobbies: Puzzles

Thanks to various things I've been reading and things I've seen on the internet, I've given some thought lately to my hobbies.  My main hobby is reading and I've come to realize more and more how much I need that time out of my own head in order to recharge my energy and calm my mind to sleep.  There are times I really feel like my brain is short circuiting that few things besides a nap or some quiet time reading will fix.  It makes me step away from whatever has me spinning in a way few other things do. 

There is also running, although I've done very little of that so far this year, but that is more for healthy living than anything else.  Although I wouldn't even think to count my inside morning workouts as a hobby the way I'd think about counting running, even though they are both fulfilling the same purpose.  

There are certain hobbies that don't work for me such a knitting or crocheting.  I know either would aggravate my arthritis to much to ever be a consideration.  I'm not artsy nor do I have a real desire to be so anything like that is outside of my interest.  I like baking but not when I am under stress or time constraints, partially why I despise making supper so much.  I did years of making all of our bread and have not minded going back to store bought bread so don't feel like that's something I need to pick back up.  I do garden and yard work when the weather is right for it but it's not something I ever crave to do although something I usually enjoy once I'm doing it.  This could be something I pick up more of over time.  I'd like to play the piano, I took many years of lessons as a kid, but we do not have space in our current house arrangement for a piano. 

This is in no way a complete list of possible hobbies, just ones I have done or have considered, however briefly, to do. 

I guess I could consider making photobooks as a hobby, even though there is an output that my whole families appreciates, I do enjoy doing them and having them done.  It is not anything that is expected of me like people expect laundry to get done and meals to be made.  I nearly always listen to podcasts when doing them, since I am nearly always doing them when the house is empty or after the boys have gone to bed and Matt's doing school. A sort of a hobby, even though I am making them for the family.

The only other hobby I can have that I can think of is puzzles.  Puzzles give me a brain break and the satisfaction of getting something done, even though the thing that is done is a puzzle that in no way needs done.  And while I like finishing one, the real joy is in each individual piece that I find a place for.  It's almost a little sad when the whole thing IS done....because that means I'll be starting a new ones and I dislike starting new ones the most of the whole process (flipping over all those pieces gets tedious). 

One huge benefit to puzzles is that it keeps me awake during family movie night.  We do family movie night nearly every Friday we are home (which is most of them) and I would fall asleep every single week until I started to make sure I always had a puzzle going.  Sure, I pay slightly less attention BUT I pay more attention doing a puzzle than I would be if I was asleep.  I usually keep doing my puzzle while Matt & I watch something when the boys are in bed.  Again, this helps me stay awake. (Should the fact that I would fall asleep doing these every week be a sign that I should just go to bed? Maybe.)  Sometimes I work on them during the day for a bit, while I am watching something (I do not spend the majority of the school day watching something but do sometimes while I eat and then keep it on another 20 minutes to do a puzzle or fold laundry or something.)  

Puzzles are also nice to do while listening to podcasts, especially when my list is piling up.  Or I'll work on one right after school when the boys are taking some down time before homework because it is much easier for me to step away from a puzzle than it is to step away from a book, especially if one of them are calling me away (as opposed to myself deciding to walk away...I dislike leaving a book unless it's at a chapter or other break).  They were great to have going during our many e-learning days in January because I could work on a puzzle in little chunks of time between instructing them in their lessons.  (And sometimes those were VERY little chunks of times, seconds at most.)

Sometimes the boys help me (Sam was delighted to point out that on the recent 750 piece puzzle I finished that I only did 749 pieces because he found one) but I mostly do them myself.  Although I wouldn't be opposed to trying a family puzzle, if they had interest.  And were actually helpful.

There was a time, most of the time we've been married, that I did my puzzles at our dining table.  The largest room in our house we call "the front room" and is part family room (couch, tv, shelves, books) and part dining room (dining table that we mostly eat at on Christmas and when we have people over but it's too cold to eat outside).  It's also where homework gets done or various other table needs, we just rarely actually DINE there.  

Then, a little over 2 years ago, I asked Matt to set-up one of these "Target tables" in my office.  Right before we got married we bought 3 of these $15/each wooden tables from Target on clearance.  They have metal legs and one was our kitchen table for over a decade (Matt has since made us a new kitchen table).  They were all disassembled in the basement.  They are light enough that I can carry it the ~7 feet from my office to closer to the tv for movie nights and they are nearly the perfect size for the puzzles that I do.  I can sit at the window seat in my office to work on a puzzle (what I would do when my kindergartner was doing e-learning on my computer and using my chair) or I can spin my desk around to work on a puzzle and also see out the window (this does involve turning the table 180° from time to time).  I was SO DELIGHTED the first time he set-up that table.  It worked perfectly.

The first one up for nearly 6 months before I got overwhelmed with life, stopped doing puzzles, and asked Matt to take it down.  I didn't do puzzles in the summer then anyways.  He set it up again in the fall and now it's been up for over a year.  Sometimes I go a few days between puzzles, just life, but otherwise have nearly constantly had a puzzle going on it this whole time.  Especially during Friday night movie nights, with few exceptions, I have one going. 

I have accumulated a puzzle collection that hovers around 20 right now and I know I have to limit myself to just one new puzzle a year at this point.  Our current storage space just can't handle more than that.  But I also know that 20 puzzles is a comfortable amount to own in that I can do them all every year as well as throw in some borrowed from family or library puzzles too.  If I'm not doing a puzzle regularly (every year), then why keep it?  I also don't mind repeating some of my favorites throughout the year.  I've been asking for one new one each Christmas and it's exciting to have that to do over Christmas break.  Although I've curated my collection enough that I get excited to do most of the ones I have, over and over again. 

Two tips I've picked up over my puzzle years.  One is that I write the date I complete a puzzle on the inside of the box lid, for puzzles I own (I do not do this to borrowed or library puzzles).  I haven't been doing this forever so these aren't complete back to when I started doing some of my puzzles pre-kids but I have been doing it for awhile and it's fun seeing those dates stack up (the one shown is one of the puzzles I've owned the longest). (And you can spot big breaks in my puzzle years when the boys were babies, I had just started to do puzzles regularly again, and wrote this post, then we got Sam and newborn life was not conducive to puzzles.).  

The other is that I separate out the edge pieces when I put the puzzle away.  Matt asked if this was cheating.  I am adamant that it is not because sorting pieces is, by far, my least favorite part of a puzzle and trying to find all the edge pieces to start to just tedious and frustrating.  Since I store many of my puzzle boxes on end (and not flat), I keep the edge pieces in a small ziploc (one I have probably gotten somewhere else and washed out), and the rest of the pieces in a larger ziploc (a great many of these we got with bagged, donated, breast milk in them for baby Sam).  I also keep a rubber band around many of those "on end" boxes just to keep them from falling open.  Then when I start a puzzle I dump out the edge pieces, get the satisfaction of doing that, and then move onto getting the inside pieces facing up.

Another note: I do not feel looking at the picture on the box or included inside is cheating.  I didn't even know this was a thing until recently and then discovered that my brother-in-law swears that it is cheating and never looks.  This is crazy.  If I wanted to get endlessly frustrated and stressed by something I would pick up a different hobby.  I am looking to relax and enjoy something so I look at the picture.  Sometimes more than others but I still always have it out. 

Some of my favorite puzzles (affiliate links below, if you purchase through them, I receive a very small amount, at no additional cost to you):

Travel poster puzzles are fun because you can split up each little section and work through them.  They move pretty fast for being 1000 pieces.  I have a world wide and a US version

I enjoy True South Puzzle Co puzzles even though they are a bit pricier.  I have a classic literary location 500 piece that is fun but no longer on their website.  I like this classic Chick Flick one and own and enjoy this Acadia one.  

Flow puzzles are some of my favorite.  The ones I have are 1000 pieces but enough detail that they move pretty well.  I have Everything is Made out of Magic and All Good Things are Wild & Free.  The pictures are just fun. 

I have had mixed luck with Lego puzzles.  This Rainbow brick one was hard until I figured out a strategy but then this Space Minifigures that I bought at Kennedy Space Center last summer was near impossible.  It's the hardest puzzle I've ever done.  I think I had it out for over 2 months.  

Galison makes good puzzles.  I have two with art by Michael Storring that have A LOT of white on them and, on pieces, it can be hard to tell if something is a person, tree, or brick.  He makes MANY city scenes that are fun but more challenging than I've expected.  I own Bethesda Terrace and St. Patrick's Cathedral.  I think owning two of his is sufficient although I've gotten others from the library.  There are many other Galison puzzles with charming pictures.  I own this Spring Street one which is fun to do this time of year.  

Both my boys have gone through their own puzzle stages.  We did floor puzzles for many years and I can't find the ones they had but they may have been Melissa and Doug.  We gave our youngest this Space floor puzzle a few years ago and did it A LOT (and then saw it for sale at Kennedy Space Center!).  For his recent 6th birthday he requested a "500 piece puzzle I could do myself" and I eventually talked him down to a 100 piece puzzle, at least to start.  We gave him this Woodland Friends one.  And we own MANY of the mini Saint puzzles from Shining Light.  My youngest in particular will do a bunch in a row, often while I'm reading books.  We also have the 500 piece Saint sticker puzzle on that page which is the one I have sitting on my table to do next, partially because it is one my youngest can do with me, probably from our countless games of Saint memory.   

That is way more words than I thought I had to say about puzzles.  It is nice to have something that I do purely for my own enjoyment, that produces no real functional outcome, and that keeps me awake during movie nights.  It is certainly a hobby that I find joy in.  I'd love to hear about a hobby that does that for you!  I hope you have one!

Thursday, February 8, 2024

{8} Things Saving my Winter - 2024 Edition

Winter is not my favorite.  It's never been my favorite.  This is mainly due to the cold and limited sunlight.  I know I choose to live here for many reasons so I tolerate the winter but that's about as much as I can get myself to like it!  We're about halfway between the calendar schedule of winter - winter solstice to spring solstice.  As I've said many times, I consider March 1st to be the first day of spring so we are only a few weeks out!  But I am linking up with Modern Mrs. Darcy as I have for many years so here's what saving my winter, for these last few weeks of it.

1) Seat heaters in my car
I started a new workout series a few weeks ago which made me very sore for a few weeks.  That, plus being cold, nearly all the time, has given me a new appreciation for the seat heaters in my Pilot.  They make those early morning drives to school just a little bit easier AND help ease sore muscles a bit at any time of the day!  I am never sad to have those.

2) Tackling small tasks around the house
In early January I made a list of 53 things to get done, 1 for every day from the start of school after break until spring.  It has been SO motivating, when I have a few minutes to spare, to get these tasks, some of which have been nagging me for months or year, slowly checked out.  I don't do one every single day, some days it just works to knock out a bunch, but seeing progress on what I've been able to do really has given some added purpose to my least favorite two months of the year.  I LOVE spring but I am considering making a new list for that time too, just to keep me on tasks of little things that I'd like to have finished.

3) Working on a new gallery wall
This is one that I have been thinking about since I read Joyful a few years ago and I am FINALLY making it happen.  The frames are (mostly) en route to me right now and I've done multiple mock-ups on my computer of the pictures I want to print (and then have stared proudly at those mock-ups way too many times).  

4) Monopoly Deal
With both boys in school I no longer get to spend my days coloring and playing games but when we have a bit of time between homework, wrestling, and getting kids to bed, I can usually rope at least my youngest into playing with me.  Even if he's so vicious I almost cried our last game.  (affiliate link there)

5) English Breakfast Tea
I start looking forward to my morning cuppa about the afternoon before.  I delight in it so much.  I do make myself drink a full 24oz water bottle before I get tea, much easier on weekdays when I workout in the morning than on weekends when I don't, but that first sip of tea that's almost so hot it burns my mouth...I LOVE it.  

6) Reading
Always.  On the days I come right back home from drop-off, I try to read for about an hour before I dive into anything else.  I mean, I'll finish cleaning up the kitchen or eat breakfast if I didn't get a chance to and things like that but before diving into work or writing a blog post or anything, I read.  So every time I say I feel really behind on everything...I mostly mean feel really behind on everything besides reading.

7) Scheduling Posts
My sister and I are on the committee for kids' school's dinner auction, we handle all the marketing.  This is our second year and it's more manageable this year!  Part is that we've done it all before but also because late in the game last year I learned that we can schedule posts on the socials and that is seriously saving me.  I've been batch posting and scheduling out things so I can do this when I have a little more energy and not at 9pm when I realize I hadn't posted what I meant to yet for that day.  It is making it so. much. easier.  And I can do this all on my computer which is nice too so the auction work doesn't use up the time I've allocated for myself for Instagram each day! (I know the password to bypass this limit but if I don't have it kick me out it can easily get out of hand.)

8) Planning for Summer
I spent January booking some things for summer and I was just texting with Matt earlier today about some more plans.  This will be a strange summer with him still in school but having some things to look forward to, getting in some camping trips per usual, helps give me something to look forward to.  Also, just know from experience that the summer will fly by so making some intentional plans now really helps us make the most of that time!

That's a few things making these cold, dark months a little easier.  How about you?

Wednesday, August 30, 2023

What I'll Remember from Summer 2023

This summer...was a summer.  It was a whirlwind.  I started planning it, mentally, a year ago.  Actually started booking things in October.  Got very serious about planning in December.  We had lined up a summer of fun and adventures.  I was going to turn 40! And then send my baby to kindergarten just a few weeks later!  It already felt momentous.  But, looking back at the summer, there is just one thing that will super stand out from these 2½ months Luke was out of school.  There are many things we won't forget but it took no time to come up with what will stand out the most from this summer.  Heads up, not going to be as cheery as other years I've done this.
 
1) The Loss of my MIL
Of course, we hoped we'd outlive our parents but we still were not at all prepared for the loss of one.  It is still hard to think about the ~36 hours from her hospitalization to her death, and all the emotions and time and tears and laughter that were in there.  It was life changing and heart breaking.   Those 10 days from hospitalization to her burial were...A LOT.  I don't even know what to say about it all but it will forever be what I remember most about this summer.

2) Morning runs
Our oldest turned 10 this summer which is the age we decided we felt comfortable to start leaving the boys home alone for short bits.  SHORT.  This happened most often this summer when I'd run while the boys were still asleep.  They were asleep when I left.  Asleep (usually) when I got back.  It felt like a very safe way to leave them home alone.  AND I got to run in cooler temps and by myself!  This really cut into my morning time reading on the porch while they were asleep but my running was very consistent!

3) Cocoa Beach
We knew we were doing a beach trip this summer but our plans for it changed about 10 times.  I kept making it closer (and if Cocoa Beach is where we ended up...think about how much further we started...) and adjusting.  This was a bit stressful back in January when I was booking things. BUT...turns out Cocoa Beach was amazing and we loved nearly everything about that trip.  There will be a post about it at some point but I am still not to that point of being caught up on everything.

4) Tequila Seltzers
We never bought seltzers until we were in Florida and wanted something for the beach (we nearly always buy our vacation alcohol at our location, hoping for something local...these definitely weren't that but we bought other things that were).  They were DELIGHTFUL and when we had one at home last week we commented that they tasted like the beach since we each had one at the beach nearly every day of that trip (every full beach day...not the driving days).  We bought more for some end of summer camping trips and then more to have at home occasionally.  It's nice being reminded of vacation!

5) My "Stories Delight Us" Tee & The Bookshelf
I bought this shirt in April from The Bookshelf, an indie bookstore in Thomasville, Georgia.  I've been supporting them for years and it was a perfect shade of blue. Long story short, I convinced Matt, once again, to make a detour to Thomasville on our way to/from Florida and this time got to meet the delightful Annie B. Jones whose face I've had in my IG feed for years and voice in my podcast feed for nearly 7.  AND I (specifically, obviously) wore the shirt I had bought from them months earlier.  Also, I wear that shirt nearly every time it's clean and the temp is below 80°.  I LOVE it.   (I am not wearing it right now...because I wore it yesterday.)

6) Lots of little camping trips
From May until the start of school we stayed at FOUR KOAs and Jellystone twice (plus the trip to Florida AND a night in Ohio after Kings Island).  It was a summer of camping and just delightful in so many ways.  A lot of packing and unpacking and some stress but the family memories made are priceless.  We are definitely prioritizing adventures at this point in our kids' lives, when they are big enough to not need naps/walk most place but also not too old to be too cool for us.  We even stayed at the same Jellystone cabin both times (the same one we also stayed at last year...one child is now saying he will never stay there again...but I do the bookings so we'll see!).

7) Dude Perfect
Last summer I saw the Backstreet Boys live and it was so fun and exciting.  This year we surprised the boys with tickets to Dude Perfect.  Literally telling them 10 minutes before we left.  One kid was excited.  One cried (maybe more over car sickness than Dude Perfect, and car sickness we HAVE found solutions for, for now).  We got cheap seats so we didn't see them real close up but it was still fun to experience them with 10s of thousands of people when nearly all our time spent watching them before had been in our house with the 4 of us (or hotel rooms).  Like, "Oh dang...50mil+ subscribers and people DO know who you are!").  It was an exciting Friday night and a different kind of adventure than we usually do with the boys!

8) Pumpkins
Yes, pumpkins are a fall thing (one child recently asked me why we are growing pumpkins in August when they are for fall...because that's how growing things works!) but we had never planted them before and turns out...they grow...a lot.  We didn't get our favorite sunflowers this year (planted them TWICE and nothing ever came up) so watching the pumpkins expand as been our garden past time.  I do not know when to harvest them but we've all had fun watching them!  We'll figure it out next month or something!

9) Turning 40
And yes, there was that.  Although I keep telling Matt I do not identify as 40 yet.  We'll see when that hits.  This was in the crazy month between my MIL passing, her funeral, three trips with Matt & the boys, and the start of school including kindergarten for our youngest.  IT WAS AN INTENSE MONTH.  Kinda nice to let that milestone bday just slide by... 
 
10) Running with Matt
This year Matt & I have run more together than any other year of our lives.  That is largely due to being able to leave the boys home alone for brief bits now and just a nature of how our schedules have lined up.  I like being DONE running.  He likes having run but not the act of it or the aftermath of it.  However, we both prefer running together than running alone.  We push each other to get out the door faster (I am VERY good at procrastinating running), he makes me branch out of my paths a bit (we have yet to exactly repeat one...which is the opposite of how I run), and we keep each other moving.  Plus, I can get chatty until I get too worn out.  It's made running much more fun, as much as running can be fun!
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That's summer 2023, grief, joy, and adventures.  Still lots of good moments in the midst of all the sad!
 

Thursday, August 24, 2023

Being a Kindergarten Empty Nester

When our older son started kindergarten 5 years ago, it was terrible.  I started crying the night before and was a mess that morning.  He went from being home with me nearly full-time (I had been working outside of the house about 3 hours a week most of his life) to being in full-time school.  It was a HUGE adjustment to our schedule and I missed him so much.  It was hard but I was reassured that I had a new baby at home and so I wasn't alone!

Fast forward five years and now I am home alone. 

It all really started to hit me last winter.  For awhile people had been asking what I would do once our second started kindergarten and I probably said something about working more.  But it wasn't until late February, a few weeks after Sam hit the age that Luke was when we got Sam, that I realized I really might have to figure out what I was going to do with an empty house all school day.  

The spring was HARD as that reality started to sink in more and more.  I spent May very conscious of the fact that my days with just Sam at home were quickly coming to an end.  

No more lazy mornings of Monopoly Deal, coloring, reading books, and playing together.  No more daytime outings to the zoo or library or to do things with cousins.  I was going to be alone.  8-3ish.  And I would have to find something to do. The prospect of "working more" was not enticing when my past 10 years had mostly been spent with a little buddy following me around.

My professional ambitions changed often as a kid but I always hoped to be married and to be a stay at home mom.  Got the marriage one young (22) but then the kids took awhile.  It was just crazy to think that those years of being a stay at home Mom were coming to an end, the job I had really wanted nearly my whole life.  They ended up encompassing my 30s: we got Luke a few months before turning 30 and I sent Sam to kindergarten just a few weeks after turning 40.  My 30s were my decade of being a stay at home Mom.  How were they over so quick??

The last month before Sam started kindergarten was just a whirlwind and I don't think we have fully comprehended it all.  It may go down as one of the craziest months of our lives.  There wasn't much time to even think about crying over kindergarten until the final days.  Luke started school the day before Sam so Sam & I got one last "Mommy-Sammy day" together where we did all our favorite things (I WON Saints Memory of the first time in months) and it was wonderful. 

But that next morning...you all, it was weird.  And hard.  Where I started crying with Luke the night before kindergarten, with Sam I started crying over 3 MONTHS before he started kindergarten.  I surprised myself by being able to hold it mostly together until it was time to leave Sam in his classroom and then I did not hold it together any longer.  I had specifically been dreading that solo walk home for MONTHS and actually doing it was just as terrible as I expected it would be.  

It took until Sam's 7th day of school before I didn't cry (and now writing this I'm crying for the first time since day 6!).  Quiet alone time had been SO elusive during the previous 10 years.  It always felt just out of reach that I would get a moment to think or read or just be.  Or I'd be staying up too late in order to get just a little bit more.  But now that's all my days were!  Quiet hour after quiet hour.  And all of sudden, for the first time since becoming a parent, I had TOO much quiet time in my days.

It's not that I didn't have things to do, I did.  I've been working more, both in the office and at home (although still not at anything approaching full-time).  I am still the more at home parent, doing the school runs and assisting with homework and packing lunches and all of that, post 3pm.  I do enjoy running without a stroller.  And there are the COUNTLESS things that got pushed during the summer, specifically the last month, to catch up, that I'm still not all caught up on.  I am working on photobooks and sorting vacation pictures and have a variety of doctor appointments scheduled (all routine things).  I think I pulled myself out of a reading slump!  I'm clearly back to blogging! And I feel like my brain finally has a bit of margin to do things like dust the baseboard behind out bed! I am far from bored.  

I'm still figuring out how to reorder what feels like my whole life in the wake of all these childless hours.  Like do I need much solo time on the weekends since that's my whole week??  What things can I pull out of my weekends and evenings and stick in the school hours to make those family times easier?  I find myself wanting to squeeze as much productivity out of school hours as I can (even if I am counting reading as productive). 

If I had written this post last week it would have been different.  If I had attempted to write anything on Sam's first day it would have been much different.  In some ways, it's a relief to have that huge transition (partially) behind me.  The dread I put on those first days was so high, it's a bit empowering to know that I got through them.  Yes, emotional, but I survived.  I am adjusting.  I have learned that being on my own and not talking to another person the entire school day is not good for me, as much as I am a pretty introverted homebody!  Even I need human interaction.

It does also help that Matt is still working 4-10s so he's had a day off with me each week which is just delightful.  Daytime weekday dates!  And working on some projects!  Although he's ALSO about to go back to school which will ALSO be challenging although I should cry less!  (Hopefully not at all, until the stress of hardly seeing him and doing the vast majority of parenting gets to me!)

Once I get through a tax deadline at work I have a few other ideas for how to fill my days and do hope to be in volunteering in the school more than I have in the past.  I do still miss my kids!  It's still so weird to have these quiet hours, to be able to listen to my podcasts in the car when running errands!  (I'm catching up on those too!)  It's a very different life than my last decade but I am figuring it out.  It's a bit of an unknown and that's a tiny bit exciting too!

Helpful resources: Kindergarten Empty Nest  |  To My Fellow Moms, on the First Day of Kindergarten (this made me BAWL)

Thursday, February 2, 2023

{9} Things Saving My Winter - 2023 version

Apparently today, February 2nd, is the half way point between the winter and spring solstices.  I.E. one definition of what is "winter".  I personally prefer what I believe is the meteorologic definition which is December - February is winter even though that doesn't match what it says on the calendar and the tricks eggs can do on the first day of spring (??).  (I've never tried those tricks.) I FIRMLY believe spring starts on March 1st and I plan my week so that I can switch out the house from winter to spring that day.  That is the day I am officially over winter.  Even as I accept that there will probably still be snow in my life for awhile.  

However, early February could be about when I am getting tired of the cold and wet and mud and cloudy days.  And I am always for thinking of things that are making life easier or better or just the good.  Remembering life isn't always cloudy days with wet snow really can help change a mood (mainly, mine).  

Modern Mrs. Darcy has done a link-up on this day for many years of things saving us this winter.  Here is my list of things saving me these last 27 days of winter.  Spring is coming.  It's coming.  

1) My comfy boots
These were something of an impulse purchase over Thanksgiving weekend and now, 2 months later, I still get excited every time I get to put them on.  They are comfortable, so comfortable that I forget to switch back to my slippers when we get home.  My wardrobe became MUCH more casual during lockdowns and these work wonderfully with the sweatshirts I now wear almost daily.  They are my favorite clothing purchase since my beloved sweatshirt over the summer.  (Which, ok, wasn't that long ago.)  (Limited sizes of those on clearance...if they had my size in stock I would be very tempted to have another of hand for when these wear out.)

photo by Sam, hence the finger
2) Crewneck Sweatshirts
I think I am up to 5 that I own and when I pulled out the one I always wear for our lazy Sundays at home, I realized it was at the bottom of my stack, meaning I had worn ALL the others at some time in the previous week.  I used to wear sweaters all the time but now that's mostly things like church or work and I wear sweatshirts the rest of the time.  They are comfy and warm and I like all the ones I have.  I'm wearing them all every week!  (I have this one from Kohls which I have no problems wearing inside all winter.  And Matt got me this one from Merrell for Christmas.

3) Working with my sister
Not literally working together, we're not getting paid, but when I was asked to join the dinner-auction committee at school to run the social media...I immediately suggested my sister would be better at that.  And then we decided to do it together.  It has been quite a bit more time than I think either of us expected and more than once I've told Matt that the project was pushing my sanity BUT...I definitely would be much more stressed and frustrated if not for working with my sister.  I haven't done many projects with my sisters as an adult and it has been so much more fun to job share this one.  The number of times I have laughed non-stop is much more with her than without. (And it always has to do with us replying to ourselves from the auction account to our personal accounts...it makes me laugh so hard, every. single. time.)

4) Tea
I don't know where my tea drinking really came from but now I am a dedicated tea drinker; I have a mug of tea nearly every single day, summer - winter.  Sometimes caffeinated (usually) but not always.  I delight in the habit of it, anticipating it and then wrapping my cold hands around the hot mug.  Occasionally burning my tongue.  My favorite way to drink tea is while reading but that's not a feat I can accomplish often, given kids and school schedules.  Although last week when we had 2 e-learning days (the bane of my existance) followed by a 2 hour delay...I had 3 blissful mornings in a row where I got to drink tea and read, a total of 4 hours or something.  It was wonderful.  And, besides vacations, I do make myself drink 24 ounces of water before my tea which means that often by 9am I've consumed 40 ounces of liquid which, yes, means I use the bathroom often.

5) Puzzles
This saves me every. single. winter.  I love doing puzzles and am on the second winter in a row I've had a puzzle table set-up in my office.  I do puzzles during family movie nights and when watching things with Matt (it's either I do a puzzle or I fall asleep).  Even though I do many, many, of the same ones year after year, I LOVE it.  It's so satisfying to find a piece that fits on the harder ones and just a lovely way to spend some time.  Although sometimes it does cut into my reading time in the evenings.

6) Reading
How did it get me so long to get to this???  I don't know.  These last 3 things are always saving my winter - puzzles, tea, and reading.  Although I do 2/3 of those year round.  I love kicking off a new reading year and finding books to read and enjoying a good book.  Reading saves my sanity day after day.  I know there are days I will feel much better if I just take 20 minutes to read.  It really can reset my brain and make moving through the rest of the day much easier.

7) Getting rid of things
I am on a quest to get rid of 1000 items from my home this year and I have a very active text thread going with 2 of my sisters to keep each other accountable (and they are both currently beating me in how fast they are getting rid of things).  I ALWAYS want to have less in my house and that got re-ignited last fall with joining a buy-nothing group for my neighborhood.  I love being able to pass off things to people who can use them!  I lament that I did so much of it last year when I wasn't counting...I could use those items added to my list now...yet...I always appreciate more open space in cupboard, cabinets, drawers, closets, etc.  Trying to get through more parts of the house as time allows!

8) Winning at Memory
Our Saint memories are still in very high rotation around here and every time I win I feel a little better about my sanity.  I only beat Sam about 25% of the time but I really try!  And may also depend on my recent sleep and/or caffeine consumption.  We've spent countless hours playing saint memory and it's been so fun.  Even when I lose.  (We have all 4 Saint sets and the Christmas set too, although that is packed away for now.)

 

9) Dark Chocolate butter cookies
I first posted about these on the blog in February 2020, ahhhhhh...the innocence of that time.  I still love them, 3 years later.  Most days I eat ONE after my lunch.  They are the perfect blend of cookie and chocolate and I still thoroughly enjoy every single one of the hundreds I've had in the past 3 years.  A box is about $3 at my Aldi and I nearly always have a small stash (2 boxes right now) in the basement.

What's saving YOUR winter?  You are allowed to say the same things every year!

Thursday, September 15, 2022

What I'll Remember Most about Summer 2022

Sooo...summer may have been over awhile ago, by many measurements.  Luke's been back to school for a month, we're past Labor Day, and we had some 60° days recently.  HOWEVER, if you go by the lunar calendar season schedule (which I rarely do), I am getting this post in in time!  Also, how would I know what was memorable about summer until it was fully over! (Really, it's COVID's fault.)  

We had a wonderful summer where the boys were old enough for adventures so we took advantage of that!  We went to Kings Island, Maine, Michigan, fit in 3 more camping trips, saw family, saw friends, ate a lot of popsicles, and enjoyed having no school schedule!  

I specifically remember thinking when we were on the Scooby Doo ride at Kings Island how it was really important that we prioritize adventures and experiences with the boys over these next ~9 years until Luke is out of high school.  Some of my favorite childhood memories are our epic camping vacation and I hope we're giving our boys the same types of wonderful memories!  Those sustain us through the homework fights of the fall/winter/spring!

1) My Sweatshirt
This should come as no surprise because I still wear this every. single. chance. I get.  It's now cold enough to wear sometimes for school drop-off!  I bought this from Kohls in late May, wore it every single day of our Maine trip, I think every day in Michigan, on our other camping trips, AND at home.  It might be the only sweatshirt I wore all summer.  I LOVE IT STILL.  It's the perfect shade of blue.  This was the summer of my sweatshirt.  

2) Kamping Kabins
I plan to write a post about these later this fall, after we stay in our FOURTH for the year.  Yes, they are, by far, our favorite way to stay anywhere besides home (even though we've been in more hotels this year but one night in a Kamping Kabin for Kings Island just isn't as practical as a hotel 5 minutes away).  I have a few in the plan for next summer and I just cannot explain the utter peace and joy I feel when we are at one.  The boys love them, they fit our family perfectly, and camping is just so relaxing.  

3) Early Morning Porch Reading
This is one of the things I miss the most about summer.  Matt goes into work early and I typically get up with him.  Once I workout and shower (if I'm not running later in the morning), I usually had a good 30-45 minutes (some days longer) until the boys were awake.  Most days I read on the porch.  I've spent hundreds of hours reading on the porch since we've lived here but in these early mornings I had to change where I've typically sat since that love seat was right in the sun.  There became something very precious and special about sitting somewhere else on these mornings and I treasured every one of them (especially judging by the number of times I photographed it).  

I'd have my tea, a good book, and some guaranteed reading time.  Often it was all the time I got to read until the boys were back in bed and it was truly lovely.

4) Tie-Dye Shirts
We didn't have these for our first summer adventure (Kings Island) but a few days before we left for Maine, we picked up our custom printed t-shirts and tie-dyed them in each of our favorite colors - blue, green, red, and orange.  Then we wore them on our long driving day to Maine and every time we set out on a summer adventure after that!  It was just fun and the boys were always delighted when we pulled them out because it meant an adventure was coming!  One or both or them may outgrow them before next summer which makes it extra special that we got to wear them so much this year (it was a very adventure filled summer!).

5) Backstreet Boys
I bought these tickets on February 14, 2020.  We had no idea what that year was going to hold at that point.  It was postponed twice and when we booked a camping trip for the same weekend as the Sunday night concert, it was partially on the assumption that it would get postponed again.  Well, it didn't and it was a whirlwind of a weekend although a highlight of the summer in many ways.  I went by myself, sang to every song, and enjoyed it very much.  Then Backstreet Boys were the only thing I listened to for a solid week.  

6) Belly Bag
This was a purchase especially for Kings Island and ziplining but I ended up using it A LOT.  All over Maine.  It was the only purse type bag I took to Michigan.  Wore it to the zoo.  It might be because my regular wallet fits in here and not in the cross-body purse I use often in the summer but also, it was easier to have this at my waist than the cross body which can swing all over, especially when chasing kids.  I felt weird buying one but it was very worthwhile to own!  

7) Popsicles
We are always trying to make less trash.  We've made many small changes just for that purpose.  However.  We just can't quit these popsicles.  I bought 5 boxes of 100 each at the start of the summer and we're down to about the last 20 of those.  And then Aldi had then on clearance and I bought another (it's going to be hot this weekend!).  It's amazing what a popsicle can do to subdue fussy kids (and grown-ups) when it's hot.  We went through SO MANY the day we dug the sandbox and often had them after the hot walk home from school.  We easily consumed 100 each plus shared many with cousins, friends, etc.  The trash these generates makes me a little sick but also...we're hooked and they saved us from many a meltdown.

8) Scooby Doo
This was the boys' Scooby Doo summer.  I don't know how they first learned about Scooby Doo or why they started getting the DVDs at the library....but they did and it became their screen time of choice.  I've written before about how much I appreciated it - they didn't fight over what to watch, I didn't worry about content, and each disc was a set length, no endlessly streaming episodes.  We struggled with some kind of quiet time all summer and the balance with screen time but limiting that to about an hour of Scooby Doo many (not all!) afternoons made it a bit easier for all of us. 

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That's it!  Things I'll remember about this summer, when our boys were 4 & 9 and we still read piles of picture books most days and we had almost daily popsicles!

What I'll Remember Most about Summer 2021
What I'll Remember Most about Summer 2020
What I'll Remember Most about Summer 2018